Music – Numéro Berlin https://www.numeroberlin.de Wed, 19 Nov 2025 18:32:26 +0000 en-US hourly 1 In Conversation with Esther Abrami https://www.numeroberlin.de/2025/11/in-conversation-with-esther-abrami/ Wed, 19 Nov 2025 14:15:04 +0000 https://www.numeroberlin.de/?p=65889
Sounding the Life of Inspiring Women – Esther Abrami

Because Esther Abrami got stuck in Paris traffic, the video interview starts a little later than originally planned. Without further ado, the violinist, composer and classical music influencer, born in Aix-en-Provence in 1996, begins to explain why she only recorded pieces composed by women for her album ‘Women’. On the one hand, the musician took a leap back to the Middle Ages with Hildegard von Bingen’s ‘O virtuos Sapientiae’, while on the other hand she devoted herself to contemporary works by Anne Dudley, Rachel Portman and herself.

 

Esther, did you mainly interpret pieces by male composers when you started playing the violin?

I only played compositions by men. It was only after I finished my studies that I thought about what we actually know about women’s achievements, whether in science or history. Of course, I was particularly interested in women in the music scene. I was shocked to realise that I didn’t know any female composers. After all, I make music on a professional level. So I started researching and opened the door to a whole new world.

Which female composer did you discover first?

Clara Schumann. I played one of her romances and then recorded it for my debut album. After that, I came across the American composer Amy Beach. Ultimately, I encountered so many female composers that it was really not easy to make a selection for my album Women. In addition to the music, I also studied the women’s biographies. I came across some incredible stories that I could relate to. I admire Mozart and Beethoven, but I find myself in the lives of female composers. That’s a real bonus. It’s important for girls and women to have role models.

Why did you honour the Brazilian Chiquinha Gonzaga, born in 1847, with two pieces on ‘Women’?

Because she is an admirable woman. When she had to choose between her marriage and music, she chose her art. She followed her dream instead of focusing on money and security. Chiquinha Gonzaga also fought for women’s rights and the abolition of slavery. Her mother was a slave.

The British woman Ethel Smythe was just as committed, wasn’t she?

Absolutely. She campaigned for women’s rights, and her ‘March of the Women’ became the anthem of the suffragette movement, which Emmeline Pankhurst was also part of. Together with like-minded people, the activist demanded women’s suffrage in Great Britain. I sampled one of her speeches and interwove it with ‘March of the Women’. For me, this mixture has something very powerful about it because these women fought for a better future.

Do you see what these feminists have achieved as being jeopardised by the fact that more and more right-wing conservative politicians are coming to power?

That can be frightening at times. However, I am a very positive person. I am confident that communication among women has improved significantly. We have become a community – even in the music world. For a long time, female musicians competed with each other. But now I have many wonderful colleagues. Instead of competing, we support each other.

Let’s make a leap from classical music to pop. Why did you want to include Miley Cyrus’ hit ‘Flowers’ on your album?

With this song, I mainly want to appeal to my younger followers. Apart from that, ‘Flowers’ gave me strength during a break-up. I’m also interested in Miley Cyrus as a person. I find it impressive how she managed to gain control of her career after her time as a child star.

Ilse Weber’s fate is sadder. The Jewish woman was imprisoned in the Theresienstadt concentration camp in 1942, where she worked as a nurse. When a group of children was deported to Auschwitz, she volunteered to accompany them.

On the way to the gas chamber, they are said to have sung Ilse Weber’s song ‘Wiegala’, which I arranged for violin and a small string ensemble for my album. For very personal reasons: I have Jewish roots, some of my relatives were in Auschwitz. Since my great-grandfather did not survive the Holocaust, I talked to my grandparents about this dark part of history.

Is it true that your grandmother inspired your composition ‘Transmission’?

Yes. She was also a violinist, but she stopped playing after she got married. I always had the feeling that she regretted that. One day, she put her violin in my hands. Her passion for this instrument rubbed off on me. So now I am living the dream that she gave up.

Catch Esther Abrami live in Paris on the 23rd of November!

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WEEKEND MUSIC PT. 71: LADY GAGA’S MAYHEM BALL IN BERLIN https://www.numeroberlin.de/2025/11/weekend-music-pt-71-lady-gagas-mayhem-ball-comes-to-berlin/ Fri, 14 Nov 2025 12:19:54 +0000 https://www.numeroberlin.de/?p=65637 LADY GAGA’S MAYHEM BALL IN BERLIN

Lady Gaga’s riotous party descended on the German capital last week, delivering a double dose of unabashed Mayhem that echoes its own hedonistic spirit. The superstar’s ambitious eighth world tour is a masterpiece in camp theatrics, tearing up the pop rule book and cementing her legacy as the most fearless and OTT storyteller of our time. Bearing witness to a truly triumphant return to the top, here’s our take on a sublimely dark fever dream that set the city ablaze.

Produced by Gaga and Michael Polansky, The MAYHEM Ball features direction by Ben Dalgleish (Human Person), creative direction by Gaga, Polansky, Parris Goebel and Human Person, choreography by Goebel, and costumes styled by Hunter Clem, Gaga’s sister Natali Germanotta (Topo Studio), and HARDSTYLE. Production design is by Es Devlin, Es Devlin Studio, and Jason Ardizzone-West.

A theatre of chaos

Incorporating visual elements borrowed from 17th-century Venetian masquerades, the Uber Arena becomes a Colosseum-like opera house. Gaga emerges in a towering crimson gown (a nod to Thierry Mugler’s 1985 Lady Macbeth), with the velvet skirt parting to reveal her feral dancers. Over two and a half hours, gothic opera, fetish couture, and surrealist cinema collide in latex veils, chiaroscuro light, and a chessboard of black and red. She sings Perfect Celebrity to a skeleton in a giant sandpit, clunks down the runway on armoured crutches during Paparazzi, and dons a razor-sharp military tailcoat for Shadow of a Man. Logic takes a backseat in this riot of chaos and couture, and before Shallow, a hooded Gaga is grappled by dancers wearing sinister beaked masks before being ferried up the catwalk in a lantern-lit boat. 

 

A spiritual homecoming

Once the epicentre of decadence and danger, Berlin has always rewarded boldness and individuality. Returning to her freaky first principles with a visceral stare, unrelenting hunger, and the devastating focus of an apex predator, Gaga reignites a fire in the city’s collective loins with her very first words: “Category is… TANZ ODER STIRBT!” A few songs later, the metallic thrum of Scheiße reverberates through the arena, punctuated with German phrases that land like insider winks, affirming a rare, shared cultural intimacy. It feels like the homecoming of a pop polymath at the height of her powers — chaotic, triumphant, intoxicating, and essential.

 

The gospel of Gaga

A strong narrative runs through the entire show: Gaga’s battle with her inner demons and ‘Mistress of Mayhem’ alter-ego. Having spoken about her fibromyalgia that has prevented her from touring in the past, self-doubt, break-ups and mental health issues compounded her troubles. Now blissfully engaged, her struggles are portrayed through elaborate choreography, embracing duelling gothic personas throughout. For the encore she appears with her whole crew and without make-up for How Bad Do U Want Me, addressing a romantic partner whose idealised image she can never match in real life. The duality of finishing a sublimely flashy show in such a stripped‑down fashion is classic Gaga, who described authenticity in a recent New York Times interview as “a committee of one.”

 

A queer love letter

“This show is for you, for your freedom. You have inspired my entire career!” Gaga has always carved out sacred space for her queer fans, and the tour feels like a cathedral for outsiders. After Paparazzi, an effervescent white cape unfurls across the entire stage, illuminated by a projection of the rainbow flag. Later, she dedicates Marry the Night to an attending Lady Starlight — her earliest collaborator and co-conspirator — and, as she tearfully recalls, “the only person who believed in me.” It’s a beautiful moment, and the crowd roars in recognition of their friendship and lineage, two dreamers who built this empire from the New York underground. When she finally rises from the piano to perform the apocalyptic love song Vanish Into You, there’s a feeling of reclamation: you can be too much, too loud, too strange, and still be seen as beautiful. Especially here. Especially now.

 

The voice behind the armour

The ball unfurls like a night in the city’s nocturnal underbelly, its setlist untethered from chronology. Opening with the operatic Bloody Mary and morphing into frenetic renditions of Mayhem’s Abracadabra and  Born This Way’s Judas, green smoke pours down the stage for the dance-floor-ready Garden of Eden. The groove-tastic Killah and Chic-inspired disco-bop Zombieboy follow, while party-bangers Applause and Just Dance whip the crowd into a frenzy. Summerboy, in which Gaga jams on guitar while surrounded by a mass of gyrating bodies, is an unexpected hit, and the years fall away for the self-loving anthem Born This Way. Her slow ride in a gondola provides a soothing visual for an evocative solo version of Shallow, and the most potent moments arrive when she reaches the piano and lets her voice soar. For all the cosplay and pyrotechnics on show, the true luxury is Gaga’s voice, accompanied by a never-ending arsenal of hits. The stage ignites for her biggest of all, Bad Romance — a final flawless blaze.

 

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WEEKEND MUSIC PT. 69: IN CONVERSATION WITH KING PRINCESS https://www.numeroberlin.de/2025/10/weekend-music-pt-69-in-conversation-with-king-princess/ Fri, 24 Oct 2025 16:56:52 +0000 https://www.numeroberlin.de/?p=65390 “My music and my art are the far right’s nightmare. So I’d like to continue being their nightmare at every turn. I hope they’re deeply disturbed by me”

King Princess grew up in New York and has already left their mark on the music scene at just 26. In our conversation, Mikaela reflected on their early days in their father’s Williamsburg studio, their thoughts on the current political climate, and the art of feeling comfortable in discomfort.

Numéro Berlin: Hi King Princess. You recently released a new album that you recorded entirely in your father’s studio in Williamsburg, which he has owned since the 90s. What was it like growing up there? And how did your parents inspire or shape your creativity? If they did…

King Princess: They certainly did. Growing up there, I was really interested in being in the studio. All I cared about was just being around music from as early as I can remember. At the same time, my mom would always have instruments at her house, even though there wasn’t a recording studio. So both my parents definitely influenced me. There was no pressure, but they saw that I was interested and wanted to leave instruments around for me. I think the biggest thing for me was just watching people record their music and becoming obsessed with these older musicians. There were trunks, people sleeping on couches, rock bands recording — and I just wanted to hang out with them because I thought they were cool. Usually, they were really nice and let me hang out.

So you always hung out there as a child?

I feel like all I wanted to do was just sit on the couch and watch everybody.

That must have been an interesting childhood!

It was definitely at times very inappropriate, at times really fun and at times kind of depressing. My dad is a recording engineer. The way I’d describe it, it’s like, okay, you’re at the fucking Audi factory or the BMW factory. You have the people who design the car, that’s the producers. And the engineers are the people that actually go to the garage and build it. Like build it from the engineers, from their designs. So it’s actually a more blue collar profession than being a producer because you’re physically plugging everything in and patching, and it’s manual, and it’s intense. From my dad’s perspective, he was not involved in record label politics at all. He was a freelance studio owner. We would watch records that left the studio sound really amazing and then all of a sudden you’d fucking get the mixes back from the label and it would all be like, ugh, what happened? That’s the politics. So that was always informative. Yeah. Sorry, I’m rambling.

No, don’t worry at all, that’s what we’re here for, so…

I smoked a lot of weed this morning. We got weed last night, it was fabulous.

Perfect, then you’re in the mood to talk, I hope. Your new album is called “Girl Violence”. Do you want to emphasize that girls can be violent too or what’s the idea, the approach behind the title?

It just is facts that the emotional warfare that occurs between women is way more intense than anything a man could do. I’m not talking about cisgender women, I’m talking about all women. The emotional intelligence that is within us. As a non-binary person I’m also oftentimes an observer to womanhood and an observer to femininity and yet I have sapphic relationships. I would consider my relationships very sapphic. They have been beautiful and chaotic and hectic and at times dangerous and at times desolate. That’s my experience and I don’t think it’s just my experience.

“I think that this experience of chaos and insanity and deep passion and love is very much known by the queer community”

So I was just like let’s put a name to it “Girl violence” and let’s talk about it, like why we are, in fact, so cuckoo bananas.

Yeah, whenever I hear straight women say, ‘Oh, I wish I could just date women, it’d be so much easier,’ I’m like, hmm, not so sure about that…

You’re like actually, by the way, it’s not and the other thing is, there’s so much talking. It’s two people in a relationship who understand queer theory and also what it’s like to live under a patriarchy. That is deeply intense and not easy. You can’t really get away with shit.

How do you mentally prepare for the launch of a new album?

I don’t know. If you figure it out, will you let me know? I don’t think I will figure it out. Because actually it’s so intense and mentally it’s always the most challenging part for me to prepare for putting out music. I feel good at the touring part, I’m good at making the music part, but the actual time in between when you’re emotionally getting ready to like give birth or whatever I’m struggle boss on that.

It’s very vulnerable as well.

I think it’s very vulnerable, I think it’s really hard, and I struggle with it. But once it’s out, then it’s kind of beautiful because it becomes the fans‘, like it changes ownership from yours to someone else’s, and that I think is really gorgeous because then you see people connecting and finding their own way through the album. And you can see what they relate to, and I think that’s beautiful. That’s the whole point.

We’re getting a little more political now. With everything that’s going on politically around the world, and especially in the US where you’re from, it feels really important to unite as a community and stand strong together. I was wondering how you think your music can be a tool for that?

Well, first of all, that’s a great question. You touched on something I’m really interested in, which is how we, as a community, can unify. 

“There’s a lot of infighting, and it’s really not helpful”

I think it’s really allowed for our crack stuff to slip through because while we’re fighting each other, there’s laws being passed actively in the U.S, that are abolishing rights that we have already decided on.

There is a greater enemy.

Yes, there is a greater enemy. A big thing I think about is, what is it that makes it easy for us to unite? For me, when I think about what I love to do, it’s seeing live music, loving art, laughing, joking, being silly, you know? Partying. These are all unifiers we’ve used in our community throughout history to get through darkness. I hope that my music provides a space that’s safe to go and see live music and art, meet friends, dress up, feel good about yourself, maybe meet a date, feel less alone, rock out. That’s what I hope. I also throw parties, and I hope that that really encourages a kind of silliness and a space for people to just dress up and mess up. My music and my art are the far right’s nightmare. So I’d like to continue being their nightmare at every turn. I hope they’re deeply disturbed by me.

How do you feel this shift to the political right is influencing the cultural scene right now in general? And when it comes to censorship, do you think people are becoming quieter and more intimidated, or are they getting louder and more united? Do you have a sense of where things stand right now?

I think there’s a lot of disillusionment. We’ve become so used to physical violence and shootings that it just goes in one ear and out the other. We hear about multiple school shootings every week, and you become desensitized. The amount of violence and sheer chaos happening in this country – in my country, and I’m sure in yours too – is overwhelming. Maybe not the shootings, but I know there have been some really disturbing far-right political movements emerging here as well. I think the way my country has handled the genocide in Palestine is appalling.

My country as well.

I’m sure you have similar feelings about that. Yeah, I don’t know – there’s just so much information constantly coming at us now, with TikTok and the 24-hour news cycle. It’s hard to stay grounded or even know what to do. So I don’t think people are getting quiet because of censorship, although I do believe there’s already massive censorship starting to take place on social media for queer people. I’ve seen it firsthand on my own accounts.

In what sense?

I have been flagged for wearing makeup because I look like a boy. So when I wear makeup, it must be drag, right? I mean we’ve been in year-long fights with some of these apps trying to get my shit back just so I can promote my music. It’s beyond. It’s really nuts. And I don’t see that on other accounts. On straight people’s accounts. Like for example if I show cleavage… And that’s partially the app itself and that is partially homophobic people reporting shit. You know, but in summation, it is Project 2025.

That’s insane.
“That’s so dark but at the same time I think that at the end of the day, queer people are responsible for all art and culture so I feel like you can’t get rid of us because we’re everything”

It’s time for us to just be making more shit, being louder, being more fucking ballsy and out and open.

Now that you already talked about drag a little bit. You once said in an interview „I’m not a woman, I’m a fucking drag queen“ and I was wondering what drag means to you today?

Drag has been a tool I’ve used on and off throughout my career – as a form of armor, self-discovery, and therapy. It’s been incredibly impactful for me to play with the form I was assigned at birth but don’t necessarily relate to. A lot of the parts of myself that are feminine feel like Mr. Potato Head – you put them on, take them off. As a non-binary person, exploring how I play with my flesh suit as a woman, as a man, and as everything in between has been necessary. Sometimes you just have to be in drag to do that: to embrace the silliness that femininity can be and to explore it openly. For someone who never felt like they were traditionally a woman, this can be incredibly freeing.

It’s just about performing femininity.

Which is how I feel anyway, so it might as well accentuate and be beautiful.

What role does gender play in your everyday life and how do you navigate a world that is designed for only two genders?

Gender plays a pretty large role in my everyday life because I’m so fickle with it. Even with what I wear, I get very nitpicky. What I wear really matters, because how I feel can change from day to day. That’s something I actually enjoy – if you can conquer it, it feels really special. But it’s not easy to conquer; it takes a lot of effort and work to make yourself feel okay, to feel comfortable in discomfort. So gender plays a big role in my life. I’m constantly navigating how I feel in a world designed for only two genders. Honestly, I kind of get the best of both worlds. I’d literally be using the men’s restroom all the time. You know what I mean? But sometimes I look like a little boy and get treated like one. Then I look like a really hot girl and get treated like that. Most of the time, I get treated like neither, and people are confused. There’s nothing anyone could say or do about my gender or sexuality that could make me feel bad about myself. That’s not my issue. I have a lot of issues, but my gender and sexuality aren’t among them. I’m not ashamed of who I am.

Yeah I think all of your fans know haha

I got way bigger fish to fry than being fucking gay and non-binary.

You are very comfortable with your sexuality and in your body now, so If you could speak to your younger queer self or to a queer kid out there right now, would you have something to say?

Yeah, I would, I’d piss myself off because I’d say, you’re really lonely right now, but being lonely is good because you’re going to figure out the things you’re interested in. And then I think I’d also say everything that you instinctually want to do is correct. Please continue doing it. Artistically, everything that is in your gut: trust it.

Great. That’s a nice ending. Thank you!

Thank you so much. Thanks for taking the time.

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WEEKEND MUSIC PT. 68: IN CONVERSATION WITH PAULA ENGELS https://www.numeroberlin.de/2025/10/weekend-music-pt-68-in-conversation-with-paula-engels/ Fri, 17 Oct 2025 14:52:36 +0000 https://www.numeroberlin.de/?p=65142 “I started comparing myself way too much because, for the first time, there was an outside evaluation.”

We met Paula Engels shortly after she released her debut album, “Kommt von Herzen” (From the Heart). Paula is a musician unafraid to confront every part of herself, even the dark and uncomfortable corners. With this new album, she establishes her identity as an artist. Paula shares with me the intense journey of making the album, the highs and lows of the release process, and how she has gradually learned to care less about other people’s expectations.

Alexandra Schmidt: You recently released your debut album, “Kommt von Herzen”. How do you feel now that it’s out?

Paula Engels: The release felt really good, but mentally I’ve already moved on because the album has been finished for about three months. In the beginning, I always felt like I still had to explain who I wanted to be as an artist and what kind of music I make. But now there’s an album, and people can just listen to it and find out for themselves. That gives me a bit more freedom to do unexpected things.
The release itself was really beautiful, and I got a lot of positive feedback. But for a long time, I honestly didn’t know if I would end up being proud of the album.

What made you doubt whether you’d be proud of it in the end?

For the longest time, I just didn’t know what it sounded like or what it was supposed to sound like in the end. Now it sounds completely different from what I expected. At first, I thought it was going to be a lot darker and weirder. I really wanted it to sound cool. But now it sounds much more like me. It’s not trying to be something it’s not.

Is there a song on the album that surprised you, maybe one that carries different emotions than you first thought, or one that became more important to you over time?

That’s pretty much always the case for me. I almost never write songs with the intention of “I want to write about this specific topic.” Most of the time, I just start writing. I pour out all my thoughts and realize what the song is really about when it’s almost finished.

“I’m never really angry, and if I am, it’s usually at myself. […] For me, music has always been a place where those “ugly” emotions can exist. A space where you don’t have to be fair.”
You’ve already put out a few EPs before your debut album. Looking back, how did your relationship with releasing music change over time?

When I started putting out songs, I realized that I didn’t actually like the process as much as I thought I would. The first time felt a bit like having a birthday. Everyone messaged me saying, “Oh my god, congratulations!” But by the second release, suddenly there was a bar set. You see the numbers from your first release and everyone else’s. I started comparing myself way too much because, for the first time, there was an outside evaluation. It was really hard not to let that affect how I judged my own songs. Eventually, I ended up hating everything I wrote in the following months.

And how did you overcome that?

I was overworked from the years before, and there was just so much new stuff happening all at once. I never really took time to reflect or let anything sink in. So I took a short break and went with my team to a beautiful studio in the South of France. That’s where a lot of songs were created. Songs where I tried to let go of the expectations of others.

You also wrote “Mittelfinger an die Welt” (Middle Finger to the World), which kind of manifests the idea of caring less about what others think. How do you see that now after the release?

I think with that song, I had so many other people’s opinions in my head that I didn’t even know what I wanted anymore. I couldn’t really tell if something was truly my own will or if someone had already talked me into it. After that break in the South of France, it became clearer. Overall, it works better sometimes and worse other times I think I’m still a bit of a people pleaser, but following my gut feeling is really important to me, and it usually works out well when I do.

“Gift” (Poison) and “An meinen Händen klebt Blut” (There’s Blood on my Hands) feel more like rage songs compared to your other songs. How did it feel to express your anger so openly for the first time?

I somehow find it really hard to feel anger. I’m never really angry, and if I am, it’s usually at myself. I think that’s a general issue among women. It’s something that’s kind of trained out of us. But I also think that everyone carries anger inside them. For me, music has always been a place where those “ugly” emotions can exist. A space where you don’t have to be fair. I’ve always loved when music pushes the boundaries that exist in real life. It felt really liberating to have a space where I didn’t need to be rational. Especially withGift”, I had so much fun in the studio. Just throwing things out there, saying what I wanted, without worrying if it was fair or not. I’m still working on allowing myself to feel anger and not dismissing it. I wanted the album to include everything I feel.

How did the title “Kommt von Herzen” come about?

I quickly figured out what I didn’t want. I feel like none of the songs on this album were written for anyone else. They all came from my emotions. One day, the idea just popped into my head. For me,Kommt von Herzen” andMittelfinger an die Welt” belong together. My middle finger comes from the heart, you know?

“I always felt like I still had to explain who I wanted to be as an artist and what kind of music I make.”
You started writing songs when you were 14. What were they about back then, compared to the ones you write now? Has anything changed?

A lot has changed. In the beginning, my songs were in English because I didn’t want people to understand what I was writing about or how I felt. That’s changed completely. The songs that are hardest for me emotionally are usually the most important ones. The ones that resonate most with others and mean the most to me. Two years later, when I was around 16, I wrote my first song in German. And in that moment, I decided I’d never write in English again. My English songs were honestly terrible. I’m really glad I never uploaded anything to social media back then and that there are barely any recordings left.

The song “560km” seems to be about both geographical and emotional distance. Can you tell me a bit more about it?

I actually had to be convinced to release it. It took me a while to realize that it’s about finding yourself. But it’s also about the distance of 560 km from Düsseldorf to Berlin. I moved really naively; I thought nothing would change. The first nine months in Berlin, I just pushed through. But somehow, I didn’t feel at home in Berlin, and in Düsseldorf I felt like a guest. Suddenly, there were so many different versions of myself, and I didn’t know which one was the real one or if the version I had in my head was even accurate anymore. That’s how the song came about. A jumble of everything, really.

What’s next for you?

I’m going on tour in two weeks. I’m not sure what’s coming after that yet. There are still so many songs from the album process that I really love, but that didn’t make it onto the record. But there’s definitely more music coming, and I’ll be playing some great festivals next year.

How excited are you for the tour?

It’s my first tour, so I think it’s going to be really special. I’m incredibly excited.

Thank you Paula!
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WEEKEND MUSIC PT. 66: IN CONVERSATION WITH MECHATOK https://www.numeroberlin.de/2025/09/weekend-music-pt-66-in-conversation-with-mechatok/ Fri, 19 Sep 2025 16:27:40 +0000 https://www.numeroberlin.de/?p=63546
“For me it always mattered that my work exists in a public domain and there is a reaction to it”

The day before we met Mechatok in Berlin, he played at the Live From Earth Festival, where hundreds of young people came together and celebrated on what was, for this summer, an unusually beautiful Sunday. Mechatok is a producer and released his debut album Wide Awake one month ago, featuring collaborations with Bladee and Ecco2k. I spoke with Timur Tokdemir — orignially from Munich and now based in London — about the importance of creative exchange and his experience in our shared hometown, the differences between producing music in London and Berlin, and his background in design.

Numéro Berlin: Hi Mechatok. You grew up in Munich, what was the creative exchange like there as a young creative person?

Mechatok: Honestly, I think I spent most of my time on my laptop speaking to people on Facebook and SoundCloud. There were a few things quite sporadically that really mattered. For example my friend Alberto Troia, a visual artist, was throwing sort of like after-parties for gallery openings at “Kunstverein” and always brought out really interesting artists. That had a big impact on me in Munich. And then there was a club called “Kong” that closed I think six or seven years ago, that place was really good. And I really like the Public Possession guys, we did a record in 2015. I think that was what Munich really did for me. But it was a lot of just being in your bedroom and being on the laptop, honestly.

Correct me if I’m wrong but you said that your new album “Wide Awake” it’s mostly about that feeling of being trapped in an endless loop online. Tell us about that.

The album wasn’t so much about purely being trapped in some online loop, it was more about the contrast of doing that while existing in this now very imperfect and stressful reality. I mean at least that’s my personal experience, you know, like living in some shoebox apartment in London, having very stressful commutes and things just being very hectic and imperfect. And then you look at these glossy things on your phone that look sparkly and perfect. 

“That discrepancy, that tangent between those two spaces is what the record tried to capture”

So you probably hear it with these very crystalline and almost clinical synth sounds and then all these samples and quite rough voice notes and stuff. That’s kind of the picture I was trying to paint I think. 

So what role did the internet play in your life back then and now?

It was super formative when I was a young teenager but it’s funny because in the recent couple of years music has become a lot more real life based. I think going to London really changed that because making music there is a lot more of a social thing, because there’s a studio culture where everyone’s in the same basement meeting each other. Whereas in Berlin for me the social aspect of music was always very much going out and partying. That’s where you meet people, but making music was something everyone does at home on their own. So the internet stopped being the main place to exchange everything, which is cool. I’m glad it became a bit more physical in a way.

And how does it feel now when you perform to see this crowd of people that you otherwise only see as numbers on the screen?

Honestly, it feels really good because I think the numbers thing can make you really insecure. Because there’s so many factors that affect how these numbers look, you know? It might be like the time of day that you post something or whatever, so what’s really good about real-life shows is that people pulled up and they clearly have a very immediate reaction to the music so it’s definitely reassuring.

You almost became a professional classical guitarist. When and why did you realize that this world wasn’t for you?

Probably around like 16, 17 or something. It’s not that I didn’t enjoy doing that, it was more that the reality of how that would look is so different. It’s not like violin where you can just be in a big orchestra. Classical guitar is a quite particular thing and that world felt very conservative. It almost reminded me of sports, where people train 10 hours a day and then the rest of their interest is actually super basic. It’s almost like they’re not into art. It just doesn’t feel like there’s a larger interest in culture. It’s more, just sort of athletic, getting really good at doing this one thing.

You moved from Munich to Berlin, then to Amsterdam and from there to London. How do these cities differ and how have they influenced your music?

I think in Munich I was really like that typical teenage bedroom producer, where everything is in your head and you just dream up a world for yourself and communicate it online, but it’s all very imaginary you know. And Berlin really made me rooted in the club, I mean that’s to be expected haha. I was deejaying at OHM like literally every other Friday before it was so popular, now it’s so hard to ever have a party there. In Amsterdam I did my masters in design and fine arts. There things became very conceptual and theoretical and I was reading a lot and thinking a lot. Rather than making original music all the time, I was more working on sound installations and producing other people’s records. Then London was like laser focus on music, just being locked into the studio sitting there all night long writing an album.

People say that there’s a different kind of hustling mentality in London compared to Berlin. Do you feel that there as well?

Absolutely. I mean, it is so competitive. Obviously it’s an expensive city and you have to make things work so you just have to grind. But also if you see people coming up with new micro-genres left and right and new asthetics for their party flyers like every other week, you just feel a little competitive and you’re like, I want to be contributing something that feels as fresh or as absurd or whatever. So yes, I would agree with that.

And because of this pace in the industry, many artists find it hard to step back from their work and take a break. How do you deal with that?

I have to find out how to deal with that, to be honest, because I haven’t taken a break in… the entire process of making the record, and now I’m touring and promoting the record. It’s just sort of snowballing, the more you do the more doors open so it’s just more work. And I’m still probably used to the times where anything you can get, you should grab and do it. But yeah, I’m just finding out how to do that.

I can imagine. Alongside your music career you also studied design. Where was that and what area did you specialize in?

So I studied at the Berlin University of the Arts, UdK, and I graduated in Spatial Design actually in the end. So it was sort of like architecture, but less applied architecture. And afterwards, I studied what was called Design at Sandberg Institute in Amsterdam, which is like the master’s department of Rietveld. It was a double degree in fine arts and design and it was basically very research-based. I always thought that was obviously cool and interesting but also a little pretentious.

Were you already making music at that time?

I have been producing electronic music since I was 16. Throughout the whole university path, I was making music and that was always a bit of an issue. I was definitely not someone that attended every class, I always was a little bit absent from school. I made it work somehow, but I don’t think my teachers really liked me that much. I still feel good about having done it though.

That’s probably due to the contrast between working as a freelance artist and the structure of university.

Yeah, working in university followed this sort of assignment-based structure.

“For me it always mattered that my work exists in a public domain and there is a reaction to it. I feel like I always learn the most by just making something and putting it out, exhibiting it, releasing it and seeing how it does and then drawing my conclusions from that”

I don’t like the idea of having one person tell me what they think about it, like that’s just one person’s opinion whereas if you put it out that feels like a way more educational process. I’m kind of a stubborn and annoying student I think, so I did learn a lot but I just love to argue with my teachers.

And now that you’re done with your design studies and focus more on actually making music, how do you still feel the influence of your design background in your music?

The project, Mechatok, I mean it is pretty much like an audio-visual project. I have a lot of visual collaborators, but I still do the art direction of all the visuals and a lot of the graphic design is my own. I always view it as a visual project as much as a musical one, I mean for the new record we did five music videos. Both things emerge at the same time so I’ll make the music while I make the visuals. And there’s always movies running on screens while I’m making music. So it really goes hand in hand.

Thank you Mechatok !

 

 

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WEEKEND MUSIC PT. 64: IN CONVERSATION WITH THE IRREPRESSIBLES https://www.numeroberlin.de/2025/08/weekend-music-pt-64-in-conversation-with-the-irrepressibles/ Fri, 29 Aug 2025 15:40:57 +0000 https://www.numeroberlin.de/?p=63346 The Irrepressibles

With Yo Homo! Jamie Irrepressible tore open the borders of queer indie rock – melding punk fire, symphonic beauty, and raw desire into what critics hailed as “a milestone in queer music.” Now, with Yo Homo Deluxe – out today on Of Naked Design Records – The Irrepressibles return with a bolder, more expansive vision. This new edition adds fresh tracks and alternate versions that push the record’s radical celebration of sexuality, sensuality, and queer empowerment even further.

Known for blending music, image, and performance into a single emotional landscape, Jamie has long stood at the intersection of art, desire, and freedom. From the viral beauty of In This Shirt to the visceral urgency of Ecstasy Homosexuality and What I Am, Queer!, The Irrepressibles have become one of the defining voices of unapologetic queer expression in contemporary music.

For Numéro Berlin, Jamie speaks about desire as resistance, queer joy as a weapon, and why Yo Homo Deluxe is more than just an album

Numéro Berlin: Yo Homo Deluxe expands on a record already called a queer milestone. What did you want to push further with this edition?

Jamie Irrepressible: There were tracks that were part of the same world and message that I wanted to add to the record and some of the tracks on the initial digital release I wanted to improve on before it was set onto CD and could no longer be altered.

Your music blends erotic energy with symphonic beauty. How do you keep it raw but still cinematic?

There’s always a sense of catharsis or raw emotion as the focus of my songwriting and then I orchestrate what I call a landscape around this that holds the emotion of the words and the meaning of the song.

What I Am, Queer! feels like both a love letter and a battle cry. What inspired that balance of tenderness and defiance?

It’s about humanity as the resounding morality. Far too many supposed moralities lack humanity or a true sense of compassion and care.

“What makes us human is our ability to care, empathize and feel different to the next person and appreciate their difference”

I think we lose sight of this often in the interests of being the same, fitting in, or feeling like we belong, rather than celebrating what makes us different. Life would be very dull if we were all just the same. So, it’s about owning this difference, how it’s your nature, and how you accept that the next person is different to you.

You invited queer string players and allies to join you for Pride. Why was community participation so important this time?

I feel we live in a time of so much corporate and manufactured music. It’s nice to reach out and do something as an indie band that connects a sense of community beyond what we are constantly pushed from mainly American corporations through their social media platforms.

If Yo Homo Deluxe were a single visual – an outfit, a pose, or a scene – what would it be?
“It’s definitely trying to continue a line from those queer LGBTQI artists we lost in the 80s to the Aids pandemic. A sense of reclaiming our voice in music and culture rather than the manufactured pop one”
Earlier songs were romantic and dreamlike, while Yo Homo! is much bolder. What sparked that shift?

The desire to put into music desire. To make a record about being homosexual with a focus on the sexual. The part we often shield from the straight world out of shame. But that is so much the thrust of most straight music. It’s record by and for the queer community. My earlier work though always openly homosexual was always focused on the beauty and love of being in love with other men.

Desire runs through the album – sometimes soft, sometimes fierce. Do you see desire today as political, personal, or both?

I think for me simply there’s a chance to make a record like this and it be heard. Whereas it would have had to be more coded in the past, more disguised.

Looking at your journey from Mirror Mirror to now, what future do you want to help create for queer art and expression?

My aim is to be part of the message. To be part of the story and the personal story of queer people. In the past to make music that inspires greater connection and appreciation of the naturalness of queer sexuality but with this record it’s like a space away to be fully ourselves.

Your music is often labelled “genre-defying.” How do you interpret that, and how would you describe your sound?

For me genre is just a means to express different emotions. On this record I use grunge/rock/punk distorted guitars as they express the sexual and visceral so well for me. On earlier records I used orchestral instrumentation to create the space for intense internal emotion and sorrow. I’m very interested in different genre’s currently to express other spaces that hold different senses of time space, lineage, and emotion. I will always be Irrepressible in my way of working with music.

Visuals have always been central to The Irrepressibles. How does fashion or style feed into your songwriting?

I love allowing other visual artists to collaborate and take the music into film, or a photograph, or design an outfit that fits the sonic. For me that’s what is so great about pop music. It’s where fashion, art, and music collide.

You’ve worked with artists from Röyksopp to Tinlicker. What have collaborations taught you about your own voice?

In an early collaboration with another dance artist, I started to explore singing in falsetto rather than head voice which sits much better in electronica. I used to sing more often in head voice / countertenor with guitar and classical music as it loud and powerful, but the soft falsetto voice works best in electronic close mic music. Royksopp were and are the wind beneath my wings in the studio. They are respectful, kind, and enthusiastic – it was pure joy to work with them, a high even. They are wizards with the sound and craft of electronic music. With Tinlicker we have only worked online. They send me instrumentals which I compose lyrics and melodies over. Again, I adore their work and the collabs we made together.

Live performance has been key to your story. How do you want audiences to feel after leaving a Yo Homo show?

Empowered and full of joy! We’re very excited about the shows at EarTH tonight (Friday 29th August) and in Manchester on Sunday (31st August.)

The new album is coming out today, just in time for this interview. Check it out!

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