Paz de la Huerta: I come from Spanish aristocracy, and my own family sex trafficked me — also to Harvey Weinstein. I went public with my story, but members of the aristocracy are forbidden from speaking to the press. As punishment, they tried to kill me. Once, they had me hit by a truck, which left me with a near-fatal brain injury. Just three years ago, my father — who also abused me sexually — beat me almost to death. I still receive death threats to this day.

For a long time, I nearly destroyed myself with drugs. But three years ago, I took a plant medicine that repaired my brain. I was able to piece together my past and truly understand who was trying to kill me and why. I took some money and left Spain. Now I live in hiding with high security.

Yeah. I have reason to believe that my family offered people money to find and hurt me. And now people are wondering: Where’s Paz? What happened to her career?

Every time I survived an attack, I had a spiritual experience. When you’re close to death, your brain releases DMT. That changed something in me — it made me want to live instead of die. So yeah, it’s a really crazy story. There are even films based on my life, like Leos Carax’s Annette. The kind of trauma I went through is beyond words. I was the sacrifice. They wanted to sacrifice me.

I’m also a victim of satanic rituals. In those, it’s always the most innocent — animals, small children — who become the prey. Now, in my hiding place, I live with all these animals, they’re all white, including dogs I’ve rescued. I call the swan that appears in many of my paintings my wounded angel. And I like the matryoshka doll as a symbol – it keeps taking on a new life, again and again.

Yeah. My family put me in psychiatric hospitals many times. When they couldn’t kill me, they tried to make me seem crazy and lock me away in one of those places for the rest of my life. No one, not even people who are truly crazy, should be in places like that. But I’m an artist. Even if you locked me up, I wouldn’t stop creating. I’d just keep painting my crying angels.

It was there even before acting. As a child, I painted these books called “The American Mansions.” I was never safe, I was always being abused. So I think I was trying to create safe spaces through art.

Yes, the animals in the paintings and the real ones I rescued are like my inner child, which I’m trying to protect. Over the years, it’s become a way to escape from my exploiters. I never turned to brutality or misery like they did. I turned to spirituality. Even though I was abused not only as a child but also as an adult, until just a few years ago.

I don’t know how it was possible. My family trafficked me and I never even saw my earnings as an actress. They stole millions.

I feel safe where I am now. The art is definitely helping me heal. I have high security and everything, so my email can’t be hacked. If it were, they’d know where I am, and I’d be dead by now. The press supports me because the evidence is clear, even the most conservative Spanish newspapers take my side. But I still lost the case against my family. Well, I didn’t lose, it’s just archived, and I’m trying to raise funds to start it again. I’m doing what I can to fight for my rights, especially with the legal stuff. I had a brain injury, they were drugging me, defaming me, and gaslighting me. I’ve only been safe for the last three years, ever since I took the plant medicine.

Oh, I believe in God. I’m so grateful I didn’t give up. I’m so happy I survived all of this. There’s a guy I like. I have a great therapist. And I want to do more plant medicine because I feel it kind of reverses the aging process inside. So, you know, I’m excited about life now.

Obviously, in a perfect world, if I were to lock up these people – pretty powerful people – and I would take the money and start an orphanage.

More and more. I don’t think I ever knew happiness before. But now… it’s coming. I would love to have a child. They made me lose two children because they wanted to erase me and anyone who would tell my story. But I think about motherhood now, and they can’t hurt me anymore, I won’t let them. That’s something I would love. I am experiencing happiness, learning that there are good people in the world. It’s hard to trust after everything that’s happened.

They had tried to steal those paintings, so I had to rescue them. That’s the only reason I had the show. And then I have hundreds more paintings I’ve created over many years. If my blood money wasn’t enough, they were also stealing and selling my art. But as long as they aren’t burned, they still exist. They’re somewhere, so find them.

Yeah, a lot of things. But above all; purity is something sacred and should be protected.